To God - June 5, 2007

Dear God-
I just want to thank you for the word that you gave us at church Sunday night, it helped so much! I also want to thank you for sending me to an amazing church where I can grow and be used to my full potential. I thank you for my pastor and the many spiritual mentors you have given me. It really isn't hard to see that you are there for me in everyway and provide everything that I need.

I've gotten to the point that I am totally willing for this test and hardship to happen. I trust you God and I know that you have never forsaken me and you never will. I trust that my finances, my health, my family, and my friends are all going to be ok and that you are taking care of them just as you take care of me. I know that you only wish to draw me closer to you and that is exactly what I want. These tests are hard, but I trust you in whatever you allow to get me to that point. I want to be as close to you as possible and I know that it takes sacrifice and struggles so that I can learn to trust you fully and hear your voice.

I know that you are doing something awesome in my church. I can feel and see it. All of us are struggling in the mostly the same manner and all at the same time. I know that the Devil is attacking our finances so that we are unable to give to the church and therefore our church can purchase the things we need to really grow. But what excites me, is that we are all going to stand firm and be closer to you and bolder and on fire and the devil won't be able to touch the move of God that comes. I can't wait for that.

God I honestly can't wait to see my friends and family saved and in church. I am trusting that you are moving in their lives and preparing their hearts to receive you. I long to see them worship beside me and cry out to you and know you as I do. My heart hungers for that! I am holding on to the promises and dreams you have given me. I just can't wait to see what you have in store!

I love you God and I truly trust you with all that is within me! I give you my heart, my mind, my body, and my soul!

To God - June 1, 2007

Hey God-
Well I played in the orchestra at graduation tonight. It made me think of the past, but also the future. As I was listening to the speeches from the Class President and Valedictorian and my mind began to wonder to what I would have said if I would have earned that honor. I couldn't help, but realize that what I would write now would have been all about you and serving you, but in high school I can't say I would have written the same thing. You know how I was in high school - let's just say I wasn't a great Christian really I wasn't a Christian at all. I do miss high school though. It was so easy and comfortable. I miss the plays and silhouettes and even orchestra, it was all so great. I wish I would have realized it at the time and taken time to enjoy it.

My mind also wondered to graduating college. It seems so far away. College hasn't been like high school, it has been a lot harder for me to fit in, but I think that is because I haven't wanted to. Miami is a great school, but it seems that everyone drinks and parties and I don't want to live that lifestyle anymore. I'm sure there are some Christians on campus, but its hard to find them.

I really enjoy the scripture, Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." It allows me to know that all I have to do is trust in you and you will show me the way I should go! It is a relief to know that, but also it is so hard to turn everything over and release my hand from it.

I trust that I am in your perfect will for my life. I just want to do everything that you have for me and to do it to the best of my ability. I want to be exactly what you want me to be just help me to get there. If it is a plumber I will do it (but please let it don't let it be that! HA!). I love you God and want to please you.

I will serve you at all times!